Reflections

So for a few days now I have been reflecting on different things.  As I sit with Hunter, I marvel and reflect on myself as a mother.  I am still learning even 5 kids later.  I look back and sometimes think of areas I could have done better as a mom with the other 4.  Then as I write this, I think why reflect on woulda, coulda, shoulda.  I can't live in the past but I am thankful for right now.  I find myself in such a different place now, emotionally, maturity wise and with my relationship with the Lord.  Oh, the devil tries to get us down on past mistakes but if we take it to the Lord He will see us through.  I am thankful to the Lord for not giving up on me. 

I also found myself reflecting on my relationship with the Lord as I watched BTI services today.  Oh how I would love to be there, to enjoy the sweet blessings being poured out.  And then I reflect, we can have those same blessings right here in our local services and in our home worship.  We don't have to wait for The Church events to experience Him.  He is right here waiting on us, we need to come to Him.  I want a deeper walk with Him don't you?  I have no excuse not to actively seek that deeper walk. 

Ok, more reflections?  Well, as I sat at my neighbors house (she is moving to Mexico) she began talking how she has studied many religions and embraces a piece of each.  I didn't talk much about that, I look back and think, "Did I miss an opportunity?"  Then I think, there was no opening to talk, just as quickly as she said that, she changed the conversation.  So no, I don't think it was a missed opportunity.

Well, that was my "deep" thought today.  I wanted to post a pic of one of my monkeys but the youngest demands my attention and since he is only 1 month old, I have to go.  Until I have another 5-10 minutes