Reflections

So for a few days now I have been reflecting on different things.  As I sit with Hunter, I marvel and reflect on myself as a mother.  I am still learning even 5 kids later.  I look back and sometimes think of areas I could have done better as a mom with the other 4.  Then as I write this, I think why reflect on woulda, coulda, shoulda.  I can't live in the past but I am thankful for right now.  I find myself in such a different place now, emotionally, maturity wise and with my relationship with the Lord.  Oh, the devil tries to get us down on past mistakes but if we take it to the Lord He will see us through.  I am thankful to the Lord for not giving up on me. 

I also found myself reflecting on my relationship with the Lord as I watched BTI services today.  Oh how I would love to be there, to enjoy the sweet blessings being poured out.  And then I reflect, we can have those same blessings right here in our local services and in our home worship.  We don't have to wait for The Church events to experience Him.  He is right here waiting on us, we need to come to Him.  I want a deeper walk with Him don't you?  I have no excuse not to actively seek that deeper walk. 

Ok, more reflections?  Well, as I sat at my neighbors house (she is moving to Mexico) she began talking how she has studied many religions and embraces a piece of each.  I didn't talk much about that, I look back and think, "Did I miss an opportunity?"  Then I think, there was no opening to talk, just as quickly as she said that, she changed the conversation.  So no, I don't think it was a missed opportunity.

Well, that was my "deep" thought today.  I wanted to post a pic of one of my monkeys but the youngest demands my attention and since he is only 1 month old, I have to go.  Until I have another 5-10 minutes

I almost gave up that anyone reads this...........SURPRISE!

So life is so full of surprises!  By now, most of you know we had a baby boy.  6 days past his due date but right with God's timing.  He is pretty fabulous.  He is an extra blessing....a time to really, really appreciate God's awesomeness.  I reflect on how this little guy was formed in me....then he came to meet the world with the help of his Maker.  He was so awake and pretty when he was born.  The labor was quick and although not painless (didn't expect pain free) endurable with God's help.  It was awesome.  See, God has allowed me to appreciate all of this pregnancy from start to now.  So cool.  I can give one pic for y'all to see if I can figure out how to upload.

 This was taken within an hour of him being born.  His hand looks a little purple in pic. 

Other surprises......I got a great surprise from the Aurora church.  A baby shower in a box.  I was so touched, they haven't forgotten us lol.  I loved it.  They even sent cake and a pack of koolaid for punch.  It was so great.

I got brave yesterday and took all 5 youngin's out.  I was surprised that it was so good.  Today Bekah and I went out for a couple hours with Hunter.  He started fussy but took a nap.

So far 3 surprises......then I looked at my blog and guess what....more than Sister Janis was following me.  I had given up blogging a long while back and thought facebook was all that and a bag of chips.  Facebook is facebook.  Not as personal.  I am back to fb but not posting as much if any. 

So I guess I am back.  I may not be as exciting as Sis. Becki and wrecking a deck ; )  but I may share a nifty or two.

All y'all headin to BTI, have a wonderful time.  I am going to try to watch if I am up.  Is it only going to be morning devotions or is anything else being broadcast?

Got to settle down and try to get to bed.  Church in the morning and we are picking up a visitor.